I apologise for the lack of meetups with dear friends (Asmah, I know you read my blog, and I know you leave a message on my tagboard. SORRY!) as this break is primarily to rest and spend time with family. Funny thing is that although I want to spend time with family, my family is busy as well. Hurhur. Today I stayed home and did household chores.

Despite that, the quality conversations we had is indeed what I’ve came back for. Thank God because He knew how everything was going to culminate and end up in this (I think of this as something near the climax already), and timing for everything has been impeccable. Yay God! :)

I’ve been getting rest too. I’ve been having 8 to 9 hours of sleep a night! Somehow the Singapore weather has permitted some rather awesome sleeptime, I’ve been waking near midday. Although it sounds very much like as if I have undone all my early morning waking up thing, I know that somehow it didn’t matter that much this time. And yeahh, my body has refused to get up until it gets enough rest. And the bed and pillow back home here is so.. comfortable.

Other than that, the strangest prayer I’ve prayed has been answered: I told God I want a new bag (He told me I could pray it lol). Firstly He gave me a trip back to Singapore – food and shopping haven. Totally sets the stage for epic bag purchase. Ps Judy prayed for me before I came back, along with the healing and the rest and the time with family, to buy bags that are reasonably price and nice. Current bag count: 3

I know that we always say home is where God is. But this tiny island is home, where I have grown up and was moulded, where my family and friends are. Amidst the irony of finding rest in Singapore, I found rest in this home.

It must be God.

this is my new comfort jacket :) realised the buttons are on the other side because it’s a men’s cardigan. lol

Jem, Bry, Ben: please blog.

This morning while I was doing it, it just felt terribly uncomfortable and upsetting. Perhaps it’s stuff I saw that I rather not see, or just the action of following everyone’s lives in the trail of the internet. The Holy Spirit showed me how this has been contributing to the issue of my tendency to compare myself with others (tendency is a very very modest word for it really), how I’ve spent time looking at others instead of looking up.

Really, so much, so much can be different if I’m just single-heartedly pursuing God.

This is my choice today. And this is my desire from now on.

I love the freedom in worship after everything that has happened. Indeed, so much more are in the open, and everything looks clearer. I want to stay in that sobriety, and I want to let God have full reign in these three days.

And I realised network coverage in Mandurah is sad, but strangely somehow I am able to get a connection with my mobile broadband in my room. So it’s pretty good. Well, it’s late.. Good night :)

He has made everything beautiful in its time. (Ecclesiastes 3:11a)

He showed me this verse today, when I was on my way home from uni, after a long day out. Perhaps it has been one of those ‘tried and tested’ verses that everyone loves, but it just launched me into a whole journey of worship. One song after another song, He brought to my mind His word and promises through the lyrics of songs I’ve known and memorised long before.

And there’s no higher love that I could find
For this joy I will thank You, I will thank You
- Lifted me high again (For this cause – Hillsong)

It’s like He orchestrated it all, to remind me how He is sovereign, how He has the best plans for me and to have it culminate in thanksgiving and praise to Him.

Hahah I love how He loves me – the love that creeps up and engulfs me in joy and comfort.

I need more of that everyday.

Today reminded me of Sundays we went on the church rooftop and talked, laughed, sang while the sun set in the background. That was a long time ago.

I do not yearn for the same experiences, I do not want to yearn for the past. I yearn for the new levels God wants to bring – to tear down, to build up, to add on.

Dear God, I want to be ready. I want to be excited about it.

Tomorrow it’s back to the familiar grounds of UWA for a little craft work (which I thoroughly enjoy!), followed by afternoon gallivanting in the city and curry puff night! – our cell group’s celebration for the end of bible in 90 days (+ a month). :D Saturday’s Jem’s back-to-motherland party, and Sunday’s church.

On a somewhat unrelated note, I think I might keep sourdough starters as pets. :)

Cheers to the weekend!