But what it made me was an utter caffeine bunny. It was such a caffeine high I had to play it out on the keyboard (thanks E!) and guess what, it made me a MAD pianist. The jitters helped me to play crazy in-between beats LOL. And I dared to play and hit wrong notes that still sounded good.

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I’ve got things to blog, so YES I’LL BE BACK.

That is what I suppose a covenant God is; He does not keep a promise to me, nor do I keep a promise to Him (because I know I can’t keep promises to God like that), but He made a promise, a convenant, to Himself. I’m just joining in for the ride for the best plans for my life.

I was frustrated and I ranted to Him. He replied and left me with the answer of who He is, and what it was all about. And that was more than enough.

He cares, and no He isn’t sadistic and wants to see me miserable. It is definitely hard to see and easy to get angry when I see my life through human eyes. But God.. He holds out the best for me. It is like Him taking away the gift wrapping and placing the present in my hands.

I am who He says I am. And I have Him who contends for me and loves me more than anything else.

That’s more than enough.

I’ll be back again soon-ish.Perhaps when the mountain-load of assignments are done. You know, they are do-able. I just need to get down to doing it. (And no, I don’t want to be doing them 8 hours before it’s due. Which means I should start about now..)

See you again when I take a break between assignments and before the exam papers hit.

(With that, shout-out to Amy – add me on MSN please. potsandkisses [at] hotmail [dot] com)

Anyway you may ask what awesome occasion have me to grace this blog a visit. The answer will be sleep-deprived state and procrastination, added along with sitting in the library trying to read a journicle and eyes getting dry. (That didn’t make sense after a while.. I want to go toilet.)

Lol anyway, I just thought you should know that I am way into my semester.. and in fact it’ll finish in 4 weeks. OMG 4 WEEKS. And there are more assignments due than I can remember. My placement is going very well, I love my supervisors – they are awesome. And I thank the church for making me a competent person in the workplace, and God for giving me church and favour, and arranging an awesome place to do my placement.

I’ve been reading blogs.. blog stalking random (and not-so-random) people’s blogs. Everyone sound so sad and hopeless.. don’t be, my friends! Trust God and you get undeniable joy that is more than a feeling!

I thank God for the moment I understood that feelings are not definitive of much, but God is more than something I can feel or sense. Even when my heart feels like ripping out, and I feel like I’m in a small boat in a thunderstorm in the middle of the ocean, God’s word stands and His presence stays. And it’s not that the feelings go away straight away, but there is an inner confidence and peace knowing that God knows, and He is in control. :D

Oh, I’ve hit halfway mark on bible reading. DAY 45! The psalms were awesome, but the proverbs are really exciting too! I’m looking forward to it. :D

Okay I should do my readings.. and dot points. (:

Till next time. <3

And I was in a deep sleep the whole night, unlike the way I usually sleep (waking up at sunrise, sleep, waking up at every alarm and snooze). I think I’m mentally strung up. My brain might have been a very high-stress state, even when I sleep. Maybe.

But most importantly I think I need to stop telling myself that I’m busy and tired. Because the coffee isn’t working very well anymore. It might be time to wean off coffee again and pick it up in a month’s time. (I sound like a recurring addict)

Anyway it’s late and I should sleep. It’s been a pretty exciting week with the massive freak hailstorm (that which is coated with tons of ironic lines before the actual thing happened) and the blackout and the cold shower today. So exciting, I’ve been putting off my assignments. I need to do them. VERY SOON.

What was it about mac being terribly unproductive? Too many pretty widgets and apps to distract you with, the shiny interface and everything.. YES I WILL PROVE TOMORROW THAT I CAN CHURN OUT A RESUME AND A 1000 WORD RATIONALE OUT ON A MAC.

Yeah.. goodnight.

Have I ever told you about the trade-off? For me to write.. reflective, poetic stuff, I need to be immersed in emo songs. Hahha, but it makes me sad and melancholic. So yes, I’ve traded my writing skills for being generally happier most of the time. :D

It is a good trade-off.

I want to meet up with Jess, and hang and talk.
I want to meet up with Mike and have dimsum.
I want to meet up with the backpacker girls, because they are leaving one by one!
I want to hang out with Ens more at home, talking about everything and nothing.
I want to hang out with the guys and see them do the SF4 arcade stick rotation game. (Haha)
I want to hang out with the Enrich girls! They really enrich my life!
I want to hang out with you, to sit and enjoy non-awkward silences, and epic conversations.
I want to bask in your presence, and stay there and enjoy your love.

But what do I need trade for these? Do I even need to do a trade off to do some of these? Some of these can’t be compromised, but school’s on – and I need to pay my sleep debt.

The past few days have been amazing – thank you to all of you whom I’ve met in this past week. It’s been awesome fellowship and chill outs. (:

Australia day was good. But indeed, matching the Aussie laidback lifestyle really, it was a little disconnecting when no one got excited about the fireworks. Hahah. You know how Singapore makes this HUGE fanfare with National Day every year, and we will get all the patriotism in us built up, with the flags everywhere, and the celebrations and the songs?

Nope. Here you fire up the barbie(-que), drink cheap Aussie beer at home, and then make your way to South Perth/Perth foreshores or King’s Park to watch fireworks.

The biggest debacle we had, and how I’ve made this Australia day totally memorable, is posting up tweets saying that the Qantas ad song the kids were singing is the national anthem, WHICH IS NOT TRUE. With all the confusion (EVEN THE AUSSIES WERE CONFUSED OKAY) and commotion on FB and people LOL-ing at us, I have gone on youtube, and figured out what song is what.

Okay here goes:

• National anthem: Advance Australia Fair
• Song people think is the national anthem: Waltzing Matilda
• Song the kids were singing in the Qantas TV ad: I’ll still call Australia home

THERE YOU GO.

And it’s nearly impossible to forget Majulah Singapura is the Singapore national anthem, maybe because Chan Mali Chan is too folksy, and Di Tajong Katong is.. about Tanjong Katong, as with Geylang Sipaku Geyland is about.. Geylang. SEE: Majulah Singapura is about Singapore!

It helps that Majulah Singapura is totally epic drama win kind of song.

OKAY I SHOULD SLEEP. (: Goodnight Perth.

Such a strange position to wake up in though, I barely remember getting into it, and I wake up all clenched up and tense. Oh well.

Sun is as it would have been in summer – up and shining brightly, at 7am in the morning.

I suppose I’ll head back to have a few more hours of sleep before I clock up too many waking hours.